On Monday I ran in the coldest temperatures I have ever tried to or want to run in(details here). Of course post run I had time to share the adventure on face book and look at it from afar and realized I was lucky to have finished 2.3 miles and that I could have stupidly have injured myself. Later a friend of mine commented on my facebook status with “Bad Ass”, a comment that I sorta enjoyed. My wife took the compliments and run posting as a sign of my deprivation and blamed the stupidity of my run on my need for attention and gratification. This response tail spinned me into thinking about why exactly I decided to run in such cold weather, was it for the need to brag and post on social media or was there something else, a deeper purpose.
I realized shortly after that what I really expected out of this experience involved my need to know what was the lowest temperature I could run in, how much cold could I endure. Reflecting further I realize this need goes beyond this incident, it defines all my recent athletic pursuits. What I really am striving for is a definition of my possible limits.
Looking at running, I know I can run for hours and miles and that I keep pushing my runs to gar farther and/or longer. I truly want to know how much I can push myself to new limits. Weather is no different, just another factor. In all my athletic pursuits I have entered the stage where i no longer care about being the fastest or go the longest. What I seek is an understanding of how far I can push myself, where my limits end. These limits define my life as an athlete and as a person. I know with confidence how tough I am, how with the right push, how far or long I can go. I know the limits of what I can endure.
That in my opinion boils down the core, raw base of all my goals and training. I want to be better than I am now and I was last year. I want to endure more, last longer and I want to be able to go faster and harder. This is the meaning of pure athletecism I am striving for in my quest to discover myself and reinvent myself as I am now, not who I was a few years ago. I am the person now who relishes in the joy of pushing the limit and going just a bit more. I crave and live for the need to go further, farther and longer. Just when I think I hit a limit, I push and strive to go beyond that lime. This is what it means to be an athlete to me. Til next time.